Writing & transmissions
Ep #30. Pregnancy Alchemy with Pilar Lesko {Podcast}
This episode has been years in the making and is an honor to share with you. Pilar has been one of my mentors for the last 6 years, and soon after I found out that she is also pregnant, I knew we had to sit down together to explore:
• How the spirit of her baby waited for her to release the energy of working herself to death before dropping in
• The medicine of the bare minimum and how pregnancy has forced a complete reorganization of our lives
• How the physical limitations of early pregnancy revealed inauthentic doing energies that were ready to be transformed…
Ep #29. Welcoming the Totality of YOU into the Totality of Life: A Raw Transmission to Kick Off 2025 {Podcast}
This episode invites you to embrace your grief and recognize it as a pathway to uncovering your total Self. We discuss the balance between masculine and feminine energies, the significance of community support in the healing journey, and the importance of allowing all parts of oneself to be welcomed and expressed.
Ep #28. Tea Ceremony, Slowing Down to Connect with Grief, and the Importance of Sacred and Ceremonial Spaces for Healing After Loss with Melina Charis {Podcast}
In this heartfelt episode, we invite you to explore the depth of your own grief journey, recognizing it as a sacred part of life. Through personal anecdotes and insightful discussions, we emphasize the transformative power of being truly present with your emotions. Whether through Sacred Ground or other supportive environments, we encourage you to find the courage to embrace the sacred space of grief, honoring its role in your life and allowing it to guide you toward healing and new beginnings.
The Loneliest I’ve ever been
Grief is one of the loneliest walks on earth. Every story and experience is so different. Every relationship unmatched. Every human so unique. And yet, everyone experiences this pain someway, somehow.
For years, while my mom went through cancer treatment, I watched others around me living their lives seemingly innocently and freely while I felt hopeless, heavy and alone, often thinking,
“Nobody gets it. No one knows what this feels like – to feel the weight of the unknown deep in my gut. To feel like I can’t make plans for my life or fully commit myself to the things I desire to experience because it could all take a turn at any moment, and then what will become of my life?! Of me?!”.
Even though I was doing a lot, I felt like I couldn’t give my full attention…
Ep #27. Understanding Needs and Finding Peace in Uncertainty {Podcast}
Grief is a powerful teacher, and understanding our deepest needs can transform this journey into one of personal growth and healing. This episode invites you to contemplate the profound connection between grief and your human needs, exploring how recognizing and voicing our needs can lead to living more authentically and embracing the unknown with courage.
I guide you through a reflective process, encouraging you to identify your needs and understand the physical and emotional expressions of unmet needs.
Ep #26. Embracing the Void: Healing, Rejuvenation, and New Beginnings {Podcast}
Unlock the transformative power of grief with me as we journey through the three major energies that shape our healing process after profound loss. This episode of Transformed by Grief guides you in rebuilding a vibrant and joyful life, even after being shattered by pain. You'll gain insights into embracing life's inevitable voids and transitions, fostering a loving relationship with yourself and your grief, and finding your footing amid uncertainty. Experience the shift from release to rejuvenation, and discover how to embrace new beginnings with consciousness and intention.
Presence: An Exploration + Meditation to Drop into Your Body and Heart {Podcast}
This bonus episode shares the audio from a recent IG live I led on presence, how it is our gateway to life, its connection with the heart and its role in moving through seasons filled with deep emotion, the reasons the mind/intellect can keep us distracted instead of present, and how to begin to work with yourself to invite presence in.
Ep #25. The podcast has a new name, welcome to Transformed by Grief {Podcast}
It's episode 25 and the show is taking a new step as a guiding light and leader in Transformational Grief Work. Tune in to hear about this evolution, what being Transformed by Grief means, and what you can expect.
EP #10. Bending Toward Life After Loss with Laura Thomas: Rock Bottoms in Grief, Reconnecting with the Core Self, and Mourning Life Seasons {Podcast}
This is such a special episode and raw conversation on reclaiming our relationship to Self and Life after loss with my friend, Laura Thomas. Laura and I met in college and then reconnected years later amidst our evolving grief journeys. In this conversation (which we recorded in May 2023), we both reflect on grief and she shares her story of self discovery and self-love, catapulted by her brother's death to suicide in her early 20's. Her story perfectly exemplifies what it means to say and live out, "I am willing, even though I am scared", and the wisdom she embodies through her 'born through grief' journey is deeply touching and encouraging.
EP #9. Born Through Grief: Navigating the Ripples of Loss as You Embrace the Surrender and Growth {Podcast}
In this episode I am sharing the energy of the 'Born Through Grief Journey'. I speak to the origins of the phrase, what it means in our lives, the initiation that it entails, and its undeniable power in our lives when we say "Yes, I am afraid but willing" to grief and loss portals and initiations.
EP #8. A Reflection + Breath Practice to Return to Your Heart, Make Space for Pain, and Move From Authenticity {Podcast}
This episode is all about bringing a conscious moment of welcoming to the grief and pain that is alive in ourselves and the world, while also centering in the heart, releasing energy that isn't our own, and moving with the energy that IS our own. I lead you in a short breath practice that I call the Fountain Breath, to help you do this. It is calming, cleansing, and centering.
Music + Intuitive Movement = Grief Medicine {Grief•Flow}
If I don’t make space for my grief to flow, the greater flow of my mental and physical energy stagnates, as does my connection to the Divine and to creativity. If grief doesn’t have space to flow, I feel muted and closed off to intimacy with my loved ones, without words to express and share my heart. If I haven’t made space for grief to flow, my body and energy feel flat and my eyes tired.
Finding the ways and spaces where I feel free to really sink into grief, sometimes for 5 minutes, other times for as long as needed, has been a work in progress. I find it is so much easier to connect to it and offer it space when I don’t feel alone, when I am held in love by someone else, or by music…
Meditation for Emotional release
The Meditation for Emotional Release is incredibly gentle, soothing, and offers guidance to begin to feel into parts of you that might be more ready to surface and be expressed than you realize.
EP #5. The Power of Emotional and energetic release {Podcast}
Fall is officially here in the US, and as we begin to explore the slow loosening and letting go of this season, I'm sharing all about The Power of Emotional + Energetic Release on the podcast this week (along with a bonus meditation on the podcast feed).
In episode 5 of the podcast, I take you on a journey, exploring the importance of releasing stuck and repressed emotion in order to: liberate VITALITY, tap into CREATIVITY, and connect with YOUR AUTHENTIC ENERGY.
EP #4. Allow Your Inner Wisdom to Emerge (+ Guided Meditation) {Podcast}
Last night I had the pleasure and honor of leading a short contemplative meditation at a community dinner. Afterwards, my seat mate asked me how I got into meditation and mindfulness. I shared with him that early in my conscious transformational journey, about 5 years ago, guided meditation really helped me connect with parts of myself beyond my (very active and quick) mind - which was in constant panic and overwhelm at the time.
I also shared with him that now in my own practice, and in my work as a facilitator, I've learned that all I need to do is create space to return to (and attune to) the heart.
THE REST WILL UNFOLD NATURALLY…
EP #3. Open To Your Fullness {Podcast}
Welcome back to The Fountain! This episode is an exploration inspired by a session with one of my clients and gets into the energetics of "making space again" after periods of massive inner (and life) shifts, grief, and loss.
I explore the importance of allowing ourselves to fully grieve and mourn, to fully be in our process of release, to arrive into the gift of opening to life again. I touch into the nuances of what this opening can feel like, and how to observe and work with the energy of "making space again" when it arises for you.
EP #2. Making Space Again After Grief, Loss, and Immense Inner Shifts {Podcast}
What does opening to our fullness even mean or look like?
This episode of the fountain explores what our "fullness" even means, reclaiming it from the idealized vision that is often touted in the current personal growth or spiritual world, and offering space to invite pieces of yourself that you've shut out to slowly reincorporate. The episode begins and ends with a brief meditative and breathing practice to anchor into your energy and to embody this message in your own way. I also explore energies of resistance, expansion, flow, and letting go.
EP #1. Introducing My New Podcast: The Fountain with Ellie Thomas
I have a really exciting announcement today - a project I have been playing with since mid-March is finally ready to be shared with you!
After 5 months of listening, exploring, advancing, and then retracting and refining until it felt more clear, The Fountain with Ellie Thomas Podcast is LIVE 🎉🎧✨. Here’s the story of how it came to be…
One Year of ELLIE•FLOW
I’ll never forget sending the emails to reveal the (re)new(ed) platform for my work last year. It was a sunny Friday afternoon, and I sat at the table in our back yard. I hadn’t expected to be at home that day – we had a wedding to attend out of town but a few days earlier my husband wasn’t feeling well and we opted not to make the trip. In the liberated and unexpected space that became available, I felt the call, “It’s time, she’s ready, they’re ready, you’re ready.”
EllieFlow had first dropped in a year earlier, during a time when I could hardly move most days, so stricken with shock and grief, feeling quite empty and disconnected as everything I had placed value on previously didn’t seem relevant anymore. I had fully released my previous businesses a month or so earlier, and embarked on sabbatical as I grappled with what would come of me, of my life, of my marriage, of my home, of my family, of my future, and more.
Big Uplevel energy at work (A seasonal reflection)
I've felt a subtle, yet also HUGE, up-level happening internally in the past 8 weeks, and wow, it's been a really beautiful and an often intense ride. I am thankful to feel present to it all even if it's brought up all sorts of things to be with, and this week I wrote a reflection on this to share with you!
I have felt rooted in my relationship with myself for a quite a while now, and more so than ever in the last 9 months. Yet even so, this transitional Spring season has challenged (read: fiercely called) me to sink into deeper trust in myself, in who I have become, and in Life as I continue to explore and embody the much greater capacity I now hold.