Writing & transmissions
Being with Yourself (+ Free Meditation)
A few weeks ago, I found myself going through all of the meditations I have created over the last few years on my computer. There are A LOT of them, so I pressed play on each one, listening to the tone of my voice and the connection of heart and mind carried through in every practice.
I came across a 6 minute audio titled “Being with Yourself”. The title alone surprised me, as the practice of being with myself is so integrated into who I am today that I don't really need to consciously think those words anymore. But it wasn’t always this way…
I don’t simply want to be alive, I want to LIVE.
My pain led me to the water of living. More specifically, my pain carried me to a point of internal collapse in 2018 where I found myself saying “I can’t live like this anymore” over and over again. Despite my deepest fears, in order to consciously choose life, I had no other option but to open to my pain – to open my arms to it, and embrace it fully for the first time ever. I couldn’t run from it, block it, push it down any longer. If I wanted to live fully, which I did (even though I didn’t really know what that meant or felt like), I no longer had room in my being to do ignore my pain.