Writing & transmissions
Ep #30. Pregnancy Alchemy with Pilar Lesko {Podcast}
This episode has been years in the making and is an honor to share with you. Pilar has been one of my mentors for the last 6 years, and soon after I found out that she is also pregnant, I knew we had to sit down together to explore:
• How the spirit of her baby waited for her to release the energy of working herself to death before dropping in
• The medicine of the bare minimum and how pregnancy has forced a complete reorganization of our lives
• How the physical limitations of early pregnancy revealed inauthentic doing energies that were ready to be transformed…
Ep #29. Welcoming the Totality of YOU into the Totality of Life: A Raw Transmission to Kick Off 2025 {Podcast}
This episode invites you to embrace your grief and recognize it as a pathway to uncovering your total Self. We discuss the balance between masculine and feminine energies, the significance of community support in the healing journey, and the importance of allowing all parts of oneself to be welcomed and expressed.
Ep #28. Tea Ceremony, Slowing Down to Connect with Grief, and the Importance of Sacred and Ceremonial Spaces for Healing After Loss with Melina Charis {Podcast}
In this heartfelt episode, we invite you to explore the depth of your own grief journey, recognizing it as a sacred part of life. Through personal anecdotes and insightful discussions, we emphasize the transformative power of being truly present with your emotions. Whether through Sacred Ground or other supportive environments, we encourage you to find the courage to embrace the sacred space of grief, honoring its role in your life and allowing it to guide you toward healing and new beginnings.
The Loneliest I’ve ever been
Grief is one of the loneliest walks on earth. Every story and experience is so different. Every relationship unmatched. Every human so unique. And yet, everyone experiences this pain someway, somehow.
For years, while my mom went through cancer treatment, I watched others around me living their lives seemingly innocently and freely while I felt hopeless, heavy and alone, often thinking,
“Nobody gets it. No one knows what this feels like – to feel the weight of the unknown deep in my gut. To feel like I can’t make plans for my life or fully commit myself to the things I desire to experience because it could all take a turn at any moment, and then what will become of my life?! Of me?!”.
Even though I was doing a lot, I felt like I couldn’t give my full attention…
Ep #27. Understanding Needs and Finding Peace in Uncertainty {Podcast}
Grief is a powerful teacher, and understanding our deepest needs can transform this journey into one of personal growth and healing. This episode invites you to contemplate the profound connection between grief and your human needs, exploring how recognizing and voicing our needs can lead to living more authentically and embracing the unknown with courage.
I guide you through a reflective process, encouraging you to identify your needs and understand the physical and emotional expressions of unmet needs.
Ep #26. Embracing the Void: Healing, Rejuvenation, and New Beginnings {Podcast}
Unlock the transformative power of grief with me as we journey through the three major energies that shape our healing process after profound loss. This episode of Transformed by Grief guides you in rebuilding a vibrant and joyful life, even after being shattered by pain. You'll gain insights into embracing life's inevitable voids and transitions, fostering a loving relationship with yourself and your grief, and finding your footing amid uncertainty. Experience the shift from release to rejuvenation, and discover how to embrace new beginnings with consciousness and intention.
Presence: An Exploration + Meditation to Drop into Your Body and Heart {Podcast}
This bonus episode shares the audio from a recent IG live I led on presence, how it is our gateway to life, its connection with the heart and its role in moving through seasons filled with deep emotion, the reasons the mind/intellect can keep us distracted instead of present, and how to begin to work with yourself to invite presence in.
Ep #25. The podcast has a new name, welcome to Transformed by Grief {Podcast}
It's episode 25 and the show is taking a new step as a guiding light and leader in Transformational Grief Work. Tune in to hear about this evolution, what being Transformed by Grief means, and what you can expect.
Ep #24. Creating Openings, Building Inner Trust, and Letting Your Greater Being Lead: Reflections from the First Two Months of The Sanctuary Membership {Podcast}
Exploring the power and process of meeting yourself in every moment, with love...
Ep #23. Grief Reflections: The Atomic Bomb Analogy, Grieving in Summer, Finding Your Attuned Grief Pace, Accepting Where You Are in Your Process, Working with Discomfort + More {Podcast}
Lots of grief reflections pouring in this season. After a potent Grief Flow in The Sanctuary last week, so many important reflections have been pouring through around: Allowing yourself to meet your unique grief ripple, attuning to your body and emotions so you can release expectations and begin to show up as you are, working with discomfort, to tap into deeper emotions beyond it, Summertime grief and how strange it can feel, Ceasing your fight with where you are in your grief process…
Big Updates To The Sanctuary Membership
I am so excited to share some amazing Sanctuary Membership updates with you!
In mid-winter, I got the nudge to start creating a space where you can sink into your own sacred tending, liberated expression process, with deep, heart-centered support as you walk through the highs and lows of your journey.
Each month has brought refinement and updating, and while the doors opened almost a month ago, that process has not ceased…
Ep #22. My Sister Interviews Me: My Journey into Coaching, Creating Energetic Shifts, The EllieFlow Process, and How Transformational Coaching Impacted Her {Podcast}
My sister, Sylvia, interviews me on so many great topics in this one! We explore everything from how and why I started coaching, to what makes this work different from "normal" coaching, to how transformational work liberates energy. She also shares about her experiences with this approach to healing and many great reflections!
Grief Flows: Allow Yourself To Grieve + Heal
Grief Flows are an essential part of The Sanctuary because every time you say yes to grief or deep emotion, you create space for healing and evolution – as you engage, energy is liberated and the next wave, action, or state of being that wants to come through is allowed to emerge and lead you forward…
Ep #21. The 4 Arches of My Journey: My Relationship with My Mom and Cancer, Health and Food, Spirituality, and entrepreneurship {Podcast}
It's finally here! The long awaited and teased episode on my background. Plus, The Sanctuary membership is live too!
In this episode I go into depth on: my early years, my mom's early cancer diagnosis and how it impacted me, the many survival and fear energies I lived with for years, my relationship to my mom and the Cancer…
The Sanctuary Membership Opening Ceremony {Free Acess}
You can now access an audio-only version of the The Sanctuary Membership opening call here (free). This was an incredibly beautiful call that felt like a nourishing yet activating ceremony to awaken the fullness and shifts that are ready to be felt and lived through the members.
Right before we began, I was doing some automatic writing and the message that came through was, “Walk in love – in the love that fills and leads you – and allow yourself to be fully here, for this is a beautiful beginning.” At first I thought the message was just for me, but as the call unfolded, it became clear it was for the whole community and I want to share it with you.
The Untold Unraveling that Catalyzed IT ALL, part 3 (My Story)
Part 3 of my written story is finally ready (down below)!
The first 6 months after my mom died were a strange combination of feelings and energies: relief, shock, disorientation, aimlessnes, ungroundedness, exhaustion, as well as incredible presence, moments of joy, hope, and new life.
I now understand something I wasn’t able to understand at the time…
Easeful Connection and Nourishment
I’m currently at the end of a trip to Colorado visiting some of my best friends from college. While I am not ready to leave them, I woke up today so excited to kick off this membership community with the first Sacred Tending + Liberated Expression call on Wednesday, at 5pm ET / 2pm PT.
I planned this to be a special opening call that helps you lay the foundation for cultivating a deep, intimate, loving relationship with yourself and life, in the joyous and painful times (and everything in between).
The Untold Unraveling that Catalyzed IT ALL, part 2 (My Story)
In the meantime, I've continued to write my story, and part 2 (of 3) is ready for you today. Finding words to share everything that was stirring within for me in 2020 was a challenge. It was a year of profound exploration and emergence, as well as terrifying unknowns for the world and our family.
So much was coming to life that didn't fit with the outer reality yet, but it was a profoundly beautiful year for me personally, as I touched into a sense of inner aliveness I had never accessed before…
The Untold Unraveling that Catalyzed IT ALL, part 1 (My Story)
As I've been working on the finishing touches of The Sanctuary this week, I've heard the whispers of its origins nudging me to share more of my story, more of the indirect yet profound weavings that line everything I do, and will be alive in every live call offering and moment of connection in this community.
I've been working on a podcast for you that goes in depth into my story and background for a while (it's a long one), but this week, high-level pieces of the ‘journey to here’ are asking to be shared...