Writing & transmissions
Ep #30. Pregnancy Alchemy with Pilar Lesko {Podcast}
This episode has been years in the making and is an honor to share with you. Pilar has been one of my mentors for the last 6 years, and soon after I found out that she is also pregnant, I knew we had to sit down together to explore:
• How the spirit of her baby waited for her to release the energy of working herself to death before dropping in
• The medicine of the bare minimum and how pregnancy has forced a complete reorganization of our lives
• How the physical limitations of early pregnancy revealed inauthentic doing energies that were ready to be transformed…
Ep #29. Welcoming the Totality of YOU into the Totality of Life: A Raw Transmission to Kick Off 2025 {Podcast}
This episode invites you to embrace your grief and recognize it as a pathway to uncovering your total Self. We discuss the balance between masculine and feminine energies, the significance of community support in the healing journey, and the importance of allowing all parts of oneself to be welcomed and expressed.
Ep #28. Tea Ceremony, Slowing Down to Connect with Grief, and the Importance of Sacred and Ceremonial Spaces for Healing After Loss with Melina Charis {Podcast}
In this heartfelt episode, we invite you to explore the depth of your own grief journey, recognizing it as a sacred part of life. Through personal anecdotes and insightful discussions, we emphasize the transformative power of being truly present with your emotions. Whether through Sacred Ground or other supportive environments, we encourage you to find the courage to embrace the sacred space of grief, honoring its role in your life and allowing it to guide you toward healing and new beginnings.
The Loneliest I’ve ever been
Grief is one of the loneliest walks on earth. Every story and experience is so different. Every relationship unmatched. Every human so unique. And yet, everyone experiences this pain someway, somehow.
For years, while my mom went through cancer treatment, I watched others around me living their lives seemingly innocently and freely while I felt hopeless, heavy and alone, often thinking,
“Nobody gets it. No one knows what this feels like – to feel the weight of the unknown deep in my gut. To feel like I can’t make plans for my life or fully commit myself to the things I desire to experience because it could all take a turn at any moment, and then what will become of my life?! Of me?!”.
Even though I was doing a lot, I felt like I couldn’t give my full attention…
Ep #27. Understanding Needs and Finding Peace in Uncertainty {Podcast}
Grief is a powerful teacher, and understanding our deepest needs can transform this journey into one of personal growth and healing. This episode invites you to contemplate the profound connection between grief and your human needs, exploring how recognizing and voicing our needs can lead to living more authentically and embracing the unknown with courage.
I guide you through a reflective process, encouraging you to identify your needs and understand the physical and emotional expressions of unmet needs.
Ep #26. Embracing the Void: Healing, Rejuvenation, and New Beginnings {Podcast}
Unlock the transformative power of grief with me as we journey through the three major energies that shape our healing process after profound loss. This episode of Transformed by Grief guides you in rebuilding a vibrant and joyful life, even after being shattered by pain. You'll gain insights into embracing life's inevitable voids and transitions, fostering a loving relationship with yourself and your grief, and finding your footing amid uncertainty. Experience the shift from release to rejuvenation, and discover how to embrace new beginnings with consciousness and intention.
Presence: An Exploration + Meditation to Drop into Your Body and Heart {Podcast}
This bonus episode shares the audio from a recent IG live I led on presence, how it is our gateway to life, its connection with the heart and its role in moving through seasons filled with deep emotion, the reasons the mind/intellect can keep us distracted instead of present, and how to begin to work with yourself to invite presence in.
Ep #25. The podcast has a new name, welcome to Transformed by Grief {Podcast}
It's episode 25 and the show is taking a new step as a guiding light and leader in Transformational Grief Work. Tune in to hear about this evolution, what being Transformed by Grief means, and what you can expect.
Big Updates To The Sanctuary Membership
I am so excited to share some amazing Sanctuary Membership updates with you!
In mid-winter, I got the nudge to start creating a space where you can sink into your own sacred tending, liberated expression process, with deep, heart-centered support as you walk through the highs and lows of your journey.
Each month has brought refinement and updating, and while the doors opened almost a month ago, that process has not ceased…
Grief Flows: Allow Yourself To Grieve + Heal
Grief Flows are an essential part of The Sanctuary because every time you say yes to grief or deep emotion, you create space for healing and evolution – as you engage, energy is liberated and the next wave, action, or state of being that wants to come through is allowed to emerge and lead you forward…
The Sanctuary Membership Opening Ceremony {Free Acess}
You can now access an audio-only version of the The Sanctuary Membership opening call here (free). This was an incredibly beautiful call that felt like a nourishing yet activating ceremony to awaken the fullness and shifts that are ready to be felt and lived through the members.
Right before we began, I was doing some automatic writing and the message that came through was, “Walk in love – in the love that fills and leads you – and allow yourself to be fully here, for this is a beautiful beginning.” At first I thought the message was just for me, but as the call unfolded, it became clear it was for the whole community and I want to share it with you.
The Untold Unraveling that Catalyzed IT ALL, part 3 (My Story)
Part 3 of my written story is finally ready (down below)!
The first 6 months after my mom died were a strange combination of feelings and energies: relief, shock, disorientation, aimlessnes, ungroundedness, exhaustion, as well as incredible presence, moments of joy, hope, and new life.
I now understand something I wasn’t able to understand at the time…
Easeful Connection and Nourishment
I’m currently at the end of a trip to Colorado visiting some of my best friends from college. While I am not ready to leave them, I woke up today so excited to kick off this membership community with the first Sacred Tending + Liberated Expression call on Wednesday, at 5pm ET / 2pm PT.
I planned this to be a special opening call that helps you lay the foundation for cultivating a deep, intimate, loving relationship with yourself and life, in the joyous and painful times (and everything in between).
The Untold Unraveling that Catalyzed IT ALL, part 2 (My Story)
In the meantime, I've continued to write my story, and part 2 (of 3) is ready for you today. Finding words to share everything that was stirring within for me in 2020 was a challenge. It was a year of profound exploration and emergence, as well as terrifying unknowns for the world and our family.
So much was coming to life that didn't fit with the outer reality yet, but it was a profoundly beautiful year for me personally, as I touched into a sense of inner aliveness I had never accessed before…
The Untold Unraveling that Catalyzed IT ALL, part 1 (My Story)
As I've been working on the finishing touches of The Sanctuary this week, I've heard the whispers of its origins nudging me to share more of my story, more of the indirect yet profound weavings that line everything I do, and will be alive in every live call offering and moment of connection in this community.
I've been working on a podcast for you that goes in depth into my story and background for a while (it's a long one), but this week, high-level pieces of the ‘journey to here’ are asking to be shared...
Your beingness is more than enough.
If you are grieving your relationship to your mother or child, the loss of a mother, child, or pregnancy, not being a mother, anticipating the loss of your mother, being in a different season of life than the mommas in your life, or feeling any other of the many other ‘grey areas of grief’ and pain that can arise today, I see you and am with you. May you you have space to move with all that is present today.
If you are craving some guided tending on your own time today, this morning's Grief Flow Ceremony was intimate and rich, and the replay is now available.
Come one, come all.
This Grief Flow was created as a landing place for however you wake up feeling Sunday - a place to move with any/all of the shades of ‘grief in the grey’ that I wrote about yesterday, a place for any pain or tension that needs a loving place to unravel so that you can tap into greater flow with yourself and Life as the day progresses.
In my experience, grief asks for presence, and one of the gifts of engaging with our grief is the open-hearted, enlivened presence and beingness we access a little more each time we open the grief-tending door and walk through.
Honoring Grief in the grey
Earlier this week, I did an instagram live (which I also edited and shared on the podcast yesterday – you can listen here) where I talked about the many shades of Mother's Day grief, and how so often, unless you are clearly mourning the loss of your mother or child, the complexity of your experience can feel like it doesn't quite fit.
As someone that is going on four Mother's Days without my mom, and am not yet a mom myself, it's fascinating to see this holiday through the ‘motherless’ now.
Mother’s Day grief Flow Ceremony
Every time I lead a Grief Flow, I am in awe of how powerful carving out specific time to allow yourself to move with grief, and for grief to move with you, is. It seems so simple, yet not something that feels easy or natural for most.
Emotions and energy connected to grief can build up..