Writing & transmissions
EP #10. Bending Toward Life After Loss with Laura Thomas: Rock Bottoms in Grief, Reconnecting with the Core Self, and Mourning Life Seasons {Podcast}
This is such a special episode and raw conversation on reclaiming our relationship to Self and Life after loss with my friend, Laura Thomas. Laura and I met in college and then reconnected years later amidst our evolving grief journeys. In this conversation (which we recorded in May 2023), we both reflect on grief and she shares her story of self discovery and self-love, catapulted by her brother's death to suicide in her early 20's. Her story perfectly exemplifies what it means to say and live out, "I am willing, even though I am scared", and the wisdom she embodies through her 'born through grief' journey is deeply touching and encouraging.
EP #9. Born Through Grief: Navigating the Ripples of Loss as You Embrace the Surrender and Growth {Podcast}
In this episode I am sharing the energy of the 'Born Through Grief Journey'. I speak to the origins of the phrase, what it means in our lives, the initiation that it entails, and its undeniable power in our lives when we say "Yes, I am afraid but willing" to grief and loss portals and initiations.
EP #8. A Reflection + Breath Practice to Return to Your Heart, Make Space for Pain, and Move From Authenticity {Podcast}
This episode is all about bringing a conscious moment of welcoming to the grief and pain that is alive in ourselves and the world, while also centering in the heart, releasing energy that isn't our own, and moving with the energy that IS our own. I lead you in a short breath practice that I call the Fountain Breath, to help you do this. It is calming, cleansing, and centering.
Music + Intuitive Movement = Grief Medicine {Grief•Flow}
If I don’t make space for my grief to flow, the greater flow of my mental and physical energy stagnates, as does my connection to the Divine and to creativity. If grief doesn’t have space to flow, I feel muted and closed off to intimacy with my loved ones, without words to express and share my heart. If I haven’t made space for grief to flow, my body and energy feel flat and my eyes tired.
Finding the ways and spaces where I feel free to really sink into grief, sometimes for 5 minutes, other times for as long as needed, has been a work in progress. I find it is so much easier to connect to it and offer it space when I don’t feel alone, when I am held in love by someone else, or by music…
Ep #7. Recalibrating Our Bodies to Be Vessels for Emotion + An Autumn Energy Read and Prayer {Podcast}
This is one of those episodes that feels like a meditation or a transformational session**. The energy current that's flowing right now is one that is calling us to presence, to slow down, to open ourselves to FEEL, and be in awareness of our bodies, thoughts, emotions, and the conditioned contractions of our inner system. I start off the episode by offering an energetic read for this season and what I feel we are being called toward.
Guided ‘Explore Your Essence’ Meditation
This centering meditation is a gentle and connective practice that is perfect to use any time (even daily) during the 'Emergence' or 'I am ALIVE' spheres of transformation, as explored in the last episode (episode 6) of The Fountain with Ellie Thomas podcast. Along with relaxing music, this meditation leads you through a simple visualization practice to release energy that isn't yours, call your energy back to your body, and then attune to what's ready to emerge and what's ready to release.
EP #6. The 5 Spheres of Inner Transformation {Podcast}
This is such a special episode because it is my first public teaching of the process of transformation, and the five spheres that comprise it, which I received in the middle of the night 9 months ago. These five spheres (Release, Dancing with the Unknown, Emergence, I am ALIVE, Here I am) each carry potent and powerful teachings that will ground you in your process, and I hope offer reflection, permission, guidance, clarity, hope, and grace in your current moment.
Meditation for Emotional release
The Meditation for Emotional Release is incredibly gentle, soothing, and offers guidance to begin to feel into parts of you that might be more ready to surface and be expressed than you realize.
EP #5. The Power of Emotional and energetic release {Podcast}
Fall is officially here in the US, and as we begin to explore the slow loosening and letting go of this season, I'm sharing all about The Power of Emotional + Energetic Release on the podcast this week (along with a bonus meditation on the podcast feed).
In episode 5 of the podcast, I take you on a journey, exploring the importance of releasing stuck and repressed emotion in order to: liberate VITALITY, tap into CREATIVITY, and connect with YOUR AUTHENTIC ENERGY.
EP #4. Allow Your Inner Wisdom to Emerge (+ Guided Meditation) {Podcast}
Last night I had the pleasure and honor of leading a short contemplative meditation at a community dinner. Afterwards, my seat mate asked me how I got into meditation and mindfulness. I shared with him that early in my conscious transformational journey, about 5 years ago, guided meditation really helped me connect with parts of myself beyond my (very active and quick) mind - which was in constant panic and overwhelm at the time.
I also shared with him that now in my own practice, and in my work as a facilitator, I've learned that all I need to do is create space to return to (and attune to) the heart.
THE REST WILL UNFOLD NATURALLY…
EP #3. Open To Your Fullness {Podcast}
Welcome back to The Fountain! This episode is an exploration inspired by a session with one of my clients and gets into the energetics of "making space again" after periods of massive inner (and life) shifts, grief, and loss.
I explore the importance of allowing ourselves to fully grieve and mourn, to fully be in our process of release, to arrive into the gift of opening to life again. I touch into the nuances of what this opening can feel like, and how to observe and work with the energy of "making space again" when it arises for you.
EP #2. Making Space Again After Grief, Loss, and Immense Inner Shifts {Podcast}
What does opening to our fullness even mean or look like?
This episode of the fountain explores what our "fullness" even means, reclaiming it from the idealized vision that is often touted in the current personal growth or spiritual world, and offering space to invite pieces of yourself that you've shut out to slowly reincorporate. The episode begins and ends with a brief meditative and breathing practice to anchor into your energy and to embody this message in your own way. I also explore energies of resistance, expansion, flow, and letting go.
Big Uplevel energy at work (A seasonal reflection)
I've felt a subtle, yet also HUGE, up-level happening internally in the past 8 weeks, and wow, it's been a really beautiful and an often intense ride. I am thankful to feel present to it all even if it's brought up all sorts of things to be with, and this week I wrote a reflection on this to share with you!
I have felt rooted in my relationship with myself for a quite a while now, and more so than ever in the last 9 months. Yet even so, this transitional Spring season has challenged (read: fiercely called) me to sink into deeper trust in myself, in who I have become, and in Life as I continue to explore and embody the much greater capacity I now hold.
finding your attuned pace & creating spaciousness to sink in to acceptance in an embodied way
Yesterday, I recorded an instagram live to explore and teach on the power and cultivation of ‘Attuned Pace’, and how Awareness, Acknowledgment, and Acceptance work together to free up energy in our emotional, physical, and energetic systems. I loved how it turned out, and it was a perfect peak into the first few weeks of my More Myself Group Program the begins next week.
Allowing Life to break me open (& INTRODUCING THE MORE MYSELF GROUP PROGRAM)
When life broke me open, everything I knew it to be was shattered. Not only had I lost my Mom, but huge pieces of who I thought I was felt like they were stripped away with her. I had already been engaged in deep internal renewal for years leading up to this time, but when she died, things that used to matter didn’t matter at all anymore. Things I used to like and want in my life no longer felt alive and important at all…
Releasing Survival Mode & Coming into Authenticity {Audio Newsletter + Transcript}
Last week I sat down and recorded an audio newsletter (think 30min podcast sans the fancy intro, etc.), which had been swirling for about a month. It felt so fun to explore topics and themes the end of 2022 brought up for me out loud - it all flowed out beautifully and I’m excited to share it with you!
A portal of rebirth: a One year reflection
For me, August has been all about reflecting, resetting, and grounding into the places I have expanded into over this past season. This week I have felt deeply emotional, thinking back to a year ago and how much has shifted since then. Late August through early October last year I hit some of my lowest grief moments, yet today I stand here open and full of life.
Being with Yourself (+ Free Meditation)
A few weeks ago, I found myself going through all of the meditations I have created over the last few years on my computer. There are A LOT of them, so I pressed play on each one, listening to the tone of my voice and the connection of heart and mind carried through in every practice.
I came across a 6 minute audio titled “Being with Yourself”. The title alone surprised me, as the practice of being with myself is so integrated into who I am today that I don't really need to consciously think those words anymore. But it wasn’t always this way…
The internal grief clock (a poem for compassionate witnessing)
I wrote this poem in the summer of 2021, a raw 5ish months after my mother’s passing (Feb 19th). This expression explores and puts words to the quiet hardening that often happens as any anniversaries or important dates approach when living with grief and loss.
In my experience, grief can can creep up or come on suddenly, and now almost a year later the way it makes itself present in different than when I wrote this, but my body remains powerfully synched with my internal grief clock.
My hope in sharing this poem and experience is to extend compassionate witnessing and holding to others experiencing deep grief of any kind, as well as space and love to invite the sacredness back in to your process.